Yes, yes. Let the mocking commence… *waves it on*
Last year nano coincided with major life changes and stresses for me and while I signed up, I didn’t have the werewithal to finish. This year, I signed up for nano, plotted out twenty chapters, and then… nothing. I didn’t write a single, actual word on the possible new novel. I wish I could claim that life sucked the (heh) life out of me or I didn’t have time or some kind of legitimate excuse, but nope. I had plenty of time and honestly, work was perfectly fine other than a few crazy days here and there. I have absolutely no excuse for not at least writing out the chapters that I plotted out, even if I didn’t finish the actual novel.
This brings up an interesting thought, though, on the actual process of writing. I’m a big believer in deadlines and outlines. I also write a lot better and faster with an audience. One would think that with all three of my usual triggers being met, I would’ve been knee deep in writing the very first day.
The problem in this particular case is that my challenge didn’t inspire me like I thought it would. I like what I worked out in the outline, I really did, and yet… the emotional connection to the novel just wasn’t (and honestly still isn’t) there. I need to have that connection to a subject/idea/plot/characters in order for the spark to ignite into the journey that is writing a novel. And writing a novel is a journey, no doubt. Without the connection, there’s no drive (at least for me) to tell the story that will bring readers into a new world.
Now, I could have switched to a different novel idea. I did, after all, have an entire month to work something out, novel-wise. And honestly, I have a sequel (3 actually) that I need to get my ass in gear and finish, but the stars just didn’t align for novel writing this past month. Every time I sat down to work on it, the words would not come. I’ll quote my S-i-L here that Mercury was in retrograde for half the month, so maybe the stars were literally not aligned for me. ;o)
Of course, this isn’t a post with all bad news. I didn’t work on my official nano entry so yes, that was a true, epic fail, but I did write about 30k words on other things during the month of November. People will (hopefully) be happy to know that the next two Arbiter shorts are mostly done and I toyed with a third project during that time, too.
I want to give major props to those who participated and finished nano, especially my friend Lynn (whom I expect to mock me endlessly on my epic failness) who took the time to crank out a really cool idea into a really cool novel that I can’t wait to read in its entirety when she’s done.